Being a middle of the road person can suck sometimes. On testing, I tend to end up being a right-brained/left-brained person. I swim in the realm of creative logic, if that makes any sense.
Ironically, I also am an intro-extrovert. I like being with and interacting with people but I can easily be secluded by myself to my own thoughts. I can be in a room full of people and enjoy just observing them.This can be a common problem that artists face. To create is generally an activity that you do on your own. Some consider it a time to commune with God or the universe in an effort to co-create a non-physical , unnamed thing into existence. It is to create something from the appearance of nothing.
The act of creating is quiet. It is meditative. Even if there is a lot going on, there is an internal quiet that we possess. Unfortunately artists can get into a routine where they are not around others. Depending on their mental state this may be unhealthy. But it is truly unhealthy for your art career. I witnessed this myself.
I have work at home that people have never seen. I just wasn't showing any one because I did not seek the opportunity to do so. But at the core I was not confident about who I was as an artist. In fact, I think I believed I was not a real artist because I did not do it as my full-time job. What a load a crap! We believe so many lies about ourselves don't we. But you live and learn.
Anyway, after going through my "artist rehabilitation" with Deborah Gonzalez, Esq. and Daniel Flores, I realized that:
1. I am an artist, I was born this way
2. It is selfish of me, and unfair to the world, to devalue my work. I have an obligation to share it with others to allow them to derive joy from it as well.
So I started working again. Baby steps are something else! Take one and then another is on the way. Slowly but surely my portfolio started to build with new work AND I decided to make cards, flyers and a website to show the world. An even bigger step was to go to a network event to have the courage to tell others that this is who I am and this is what I do. I am being refined daily, but the process has begun. If I had continued to stay in my little studio and make things just for me I would not have gotten this far.
If you are an undercover artist, can you think of one way you can tell the world what you do TODAY?
Let me know what you come up with! I am anxious to hear from you!
Until next time, I wish you peace and creativity!